Thoughts of my mind.

 September 3rd, 2023. 

Hi, everyone! Hope you are doing great! 😊 To be honest I don't feel really well to write something really increadible about the story I'm doing so I will take a little break from that and today I'm going to write about me. 

Have you ever felt fear about your future? Well, lately I've been feeling that way, since this is my last year of collage I need to know what I'm going to do after it. Thinking about the things you are going to do after collage is really hard for me because depending on the decitions that I make that can determine my whole future (or not? that's another question that I make to myself ;v). Since the last year up to today, I've been thinking about the decision I would take at the end of the year and guess what? I haven't decided yet 😞😞 For many adult people this is a really easy decision, even some of them can tell you that when you are 18 year old, you already know what you want to do in life. But nowadays I consider that it is very difficult to find a job in which you can earn a good amount of money and you like or to which you had studied for ar the same time. 

Life is getting more and more expensive and at the end it forces people to work in jobs in which they can earn more money rather than in jobs they really like (but in my mind I say: "Well, at least they are doing somethinng not like me that I only waste the time thinking about what should I do or not" 😔). When I was at high school and at school there was a homework in which you had to write your gols and all those things, I remember that I used to write that I wanted to travel around the world, buy my own hose, etc. Even nowadays when my family asks me something like "What are you goin do in the future or something related to that" I sometime say that will apply for a scholarship and I will live abroad like in France or the United State but then I realize that taking those types of decisions is really hard. I wish I had a book in which I could look for all the things that will happen in my life to take better decisions or to know what can I do (but that's something unreal since life is never predictable). 

Since 2022, I have met few people from which I could learn a lot of things (to be honest I don't know why always when I'm going to different places the people that are like 50 years old or more talk to me and I feel like they may think "Oh, I'm going to talk to that young lady and I'm goint to give her some advices about life since she seems to need them" 😂). Hearing about life experiences has really helped me to identify where I don't want to go, but the problem is that there are many other places where I could go (of course in my mind I have a lot of places to go hahhahhahh, like: Paris, Italy, etc.). 

Well, hope you are not that kind of indecisive person like me because it is really hard to make one little decision. Some people say that you have to be optimistic about the future since you attrac what you say, so I will think only cute things. 

Thanks for reading my blog, I hope you have liked it! In my case, I feel better after writing all my thoughts and concerns👉👈. 

Have you had a great weekend and never give up!

See you, 

Doris.